Remaining with us

God is always with us. This is something that has been a topic in my life for like the past week. I love when the Lord tries to drill things in my head. It just pops up day after day whether it be a bible verse or a devotion. I am amazed by this concept. Even when we feel like I are alone in the world and there is no one to run to, he is there. As I am typing these words he is with me. I think that is what keeps me going. I know that whether i am struggling or bubbling with joy He is with me.  I guess I could even go as far as saying he is in us but i feel arrogant thinking that the creator of the earth is interesting in filling me with his amazing spirit. I do know though that he is within me whether or not i want to admit it; the only good i can do comes from him. This may not have made any sense at all and i might just be rambling but i just wanted to get it off of my mind and into words. 

Mistakes

The mistakes i make. It's funny how proud of myself i can be and then i make a mistake and it is SO SO hard for me to admit my mistake and accept constructive criticism. I guess this is all apart of being fallen from the Lord. I can do nothing worthwhile without him. As much as I dislike failure and making mistakes, they make me the person I am today. There is not a mistake I have made that, once I got over my pride, has not brought me closer to the Lord. That is the beauty in err. I have to humble myself before the Lord and realize that i can not do it without him. I have to daily take up my cross and trust in Christ's redemption. 

passion

Last night I came to the realization that the Lord has given me the gift of passion. I am so thankful for this! I know this is random but its just something i wanted to talk about. Last night was the region finals for girls and boys basketball. Our girls came into the tournament last in region and most people had there doubts about them getting past the first round. Well, we won that first round and beat a team that had solidly beaten us twice. The finals were exactly the same. We had lost to this team twice but our girls never gave up and beat them by two points in the finals. I say all of this because while these games were going on I was up in the stands cheering my sister on. I think that may be an understatement though, I was more like SCREAMING until my face turned red. I was passionate about the game; I wanted people to cheer. The fact that the court was below the stands and the girls could not hear us did not matter to me. These girls needed our support to get through the game. Two of my good friends were sitting next to me the entire game and im sure they were embarrassed by my yelling, but at the moment I didn't care these players were ahead and i wanted them to win. I eventually ended up standing up with another parent to cheer and we were constantly asking everyone else to stand up. I loved being so into something that i forgot about everything else in the world for that moment. I could not talk during the game because i was screaming so loudly. By the end of the game, my voice was just rasp and i was beginning to have a tension head ache for tensing up so much. No matter how badly my throat hurt from screaming or how badly my neck hurt from tensing up at every exciting play in the game it was all worth it to see the looks on the girls faces when they, fourth in region, came back to win region. I was passionate about cheering them on, but moreover they were fired up and passionate about basketball and that is what won them a region champion ship.

i dont know what im doing

So recently, as in this week. I have been contemplating what it would be like to have a blog. As i was reading other people's blogs I remembered that I had one of my own from school! I signed on, did some dilly dallying and here i am writing my first blog. My grammar and spelling is probably terrible but oh well, you'll just have to deal. I dont really have anything to write about on my mind right now. Well i am a little nervous about starting this little journey, but i figured if im going to college nine hours from home and from my highschool friends someone might want to here about my life every once in a while. Hopefully this thing won't end up to wacked out. thats all for now...